I refuse a bad country song/

The last few weeks of my life have played out much like a horribly sad country song.

I had a job but was being treated miserably. Not only was I being treated badly but so were the residents. So one day I had enough; I treated my patients, I did all my paper work, I packed up all my stuff and then I wrote a long letter describing all the issues that I had brought up to my supervisor but was told there was nothing that could be done for whatever reason. I had huge hopes that my grand gesture would make a difference, would change the way things were happening, but alas not much has come from it except an intense 2 hour interview, lawyers being contacted and I'm no longer working there. I'm sure Medicare, Medicaid and the State will be much more interested to hear about what's going on.

 So on top of being unemployed at Christmas, I'm now a barefoot, pregnant housewife in the country. Nothing like I EVER imaged. I was somehow still keeping my head above the depression level until poor Timberlands pain was too much to deal with and we had to put him down. Timberland was an amazing dog that changed our life for the better and although I've cried more tears than I care to discuss I wouldn't want to exchange the heart break of loss for not having him in our lives. I know e did the right thing,  but watching him suffer and trying to decide what to do seems to have broken my soul a little bit. Life just isn't what I hoped for right now. I certainly didn't think after a billion years of schools and trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life, I would end up having a doctorate, with may thousands of student loan debt,  being unemployed, pregnant and trying to clip enough coupons to make ends meat until I go back to work full time. All the gloomy weather certainly isn't helping me feel any better, but I have much to be thankful for and I am making a huge effort to turn this around.

So here it is, the things I am grateful for at this very second, the things that are going to take my country song life and turn it into some sort of amazing chick rock.

• Our baby is doing great! His heartbeat is around 140 BPM and seems to be growing perfectly.
• I landed a PRN position that could be starting as early as sometime this week. 
• Jason goes on Christmas break Friday so we'll have 2 weeks worth of time together. 
• We've budgted and didn't have to totally cancel Christmas. 
• My family and friends are healthy. 
• Courage seems to be dealing with the loss of Timberland. 
• I had almost 2 weeks of extra time with Timberland because of my unemployment.
• I've finished our Christmas cards. 
• We've only got one more week of Hypnobabies class.
• Jason loves me more than I find imaginable. 
• My bump is big enough now people don't just think I'm fat. 
• I find feeling our baby kicking to be joyful.
• We have agreed we'll be moving.
• I find our Christmas tree beautiful.
• I'm going to a birthday party this weekend.
• I love Little Debbie Christmas Trees cakes