This baby was a surprise of sorts. We knew we wanted to have a baby in the future but the plan was not until Kelso was at least 2 before we would try, meaning he'd be 3 before baby would come along… However, as I'm learning these plans are not always in our hands and honestly I couldn't be happier or more terrified. So this baby is our 10th anniversary baby… One night with the calendar and counting thrown to the wind and here we are… we now have proven it really does only take one time.
Weeks before I could take a pregnancy test I started having symptoms so much so that one of my co-workers who is also a school nurse said "You need to take a pregnancy test". I literally knocked over a basin of water when she said it… the idea hadn't crossed my mind yet but as my symptoms conintued I started to wonder. The days went on and so did my symptoms, light headed, indigestion, bloating, hungry but nauseated…. Sounds so silly because it was so early but there it was Oct 29, I experienced the same exact implantation "spotting" really more like a spot. I came out of the bathroom and said, Jason I'm pretty sure we're pregnant… he just laughed. I decided to wait until Halloween to test because even though having a baby wasn't the plan at this moment after weeks of pondering I was pretty sure I'd be shocked if it was positive and disappointed if it was negative. When I peed on the stick I set my clock on my phone just as I did with Kelso except this time I had a little guy in there to distract me… When the timer went off there was a faint line. I texted a pic to Jason that second trying to get it to him before school started. However he wasn't convinced… So I voxed Susan a picture of the "pink" early response test and she confirmed any line is a positive line but I needed more tests. So off to Wal-greens Kelso and I went, lots of pee and picture texts and we are both convinced. I have to say he remained skeptical until he saw that digital test that actually said "pregnant". So take note ladies men prefer the actual words.
I'm so excited that our family is growing. I'm ecstatic about holding a beautiful baby in my arms. I can't wait to experience that feeling of my heart grown 20% its size the second I see our baby and the awe of every single second. I'm also super happy that Kelso will have a sibling to play with, learn with and enjoy. That being said I'm completely terrified, two babies?! Two kids under 3… really under 2.5. Ahhh… I mean I'm still nursing Kelso! I never even thought about tandem nursing. I'm still sleeping sharing with Kelso. What does that mean for baby #2? We're finally sleeping through to 5am most nights but it is still hours of work to get him to go to sleep. Beyond that how will Kelso feel about having a brother or sister? Will they be close? Will they hate each other? I almost feel sort of guilty, like I'm going to make him grow up faster because there will be another baby... The thoughts swirling around in my head are dizzying.
As time is going on I'm getting more and more comfortable with the idea of 2 as well as more excited. I'm so curious if we will be having a boy or a girl. It would be great to have a second boy because I always pictured 2 boys when I was younger, Kelso would have a playmate and we have just about everything we will need.. but a girl would be amazing too. As I have gotten older I've seen how awesome that mother daughter bond can be and I'd love to have that experience and I think we'd be great parents for a girl. It's strange because I know either way this child is going to be just the perfect fit for us. It just feels like he or she was picked just for our little family. Hopefully in about 3 weeks we'll know and we can start figuring out what we will name this sweet baby and start preparing.
It's going to be a beautiful ride! I'm so happy to be a mommy. Can't believe I'm going to be a mommy of two!
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