All Done

Miserable
I'm miserable. I seem to write this same type blog every Sunday and I think the reason is I'm sick of living in two places. I'm sick of packing myself up every weekend to spend 5 long days working for free. Don't get me wrong I've had an amazing time going to school, doing my fieldwork and even residency but as so many children have said before I'm "all done". I'm tired! I'm sick of driving back and forth. I hate leaving, I hate the packing and I hate the waking up before the sun comes up for 0 reward.

Thankful?
I know I shouldn't complain. I know that I'll look back on these time fondly and I'm truly bless. I guess I'm just running on empty. I had a very rough Friday and I can tell you the short less than 72 hour turnaround isn't enough to make me happy to go back. 

Church
I went to church and I always feel peaceful there but today it didn't even last me through the day.

SAD
I think I'm having some seasonal affect disorder issues. I feel blue. Nothing, I've done has seemed to fix it either. I'm exercising, I'm eating well, I'm turning the lights on during the day, I'm soaking up every sun beam  I can find and yet I'm still blue. I don't recall ever being this blue from the weather... perhaps it's my age, impending future changes and bad weather making me blue.

Pushing through
I've decided I'm going to push through and shoot for at least 50 hours a week so I can get my residency done ASAP. I need to be at home with Jason...

Lastly
I have to blog as part of my residency now and it kind of ruins it for me. I'm happy to be working on something so awesome but by the end of the 640 hours I'm not going to want to have anything to do with funding of wheelchairs. Hopefully my next blog will be positie and inspiring. I read somewhere that Monday's in Januaray are the most despressing of all the month and day combinatiaon.